Posts Tagged ‘decisions’

If and Then

Posted: January 27, 2015 in Concrete Jungle Life
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Tell me if this statement sounds familiar: If I knew then what I know now I would have done things differently.

Sure we all have said that once we have experienced the consequences of our past actions, but believing we would do things differently is a false assumption and here is why. Unless, you are keenly aware and spiritually sensitive to your current actions, employing some kind of spiritual kaizen to improve your ways, at best you are repeating yesterday’s agenda.

Most people will not take the high road and make the necessary changes in their lives because, quite frankly, it is hard work. It is painful to employ analytic thinking only to discover your thoughts are dripping with unchallenged prejudices. It is disturbing and uncomfortable to live with the collateral damage of decisions made twenty years ago. We get easily sidetracked by peer pressure, the cares of this life, the lust to compete with people we do not know in order to impress people we could care less about.

What’s equally disturbing is that some of us are so far removed from the decisions we make that we are numb to its immediate effects and blind to the long-term collateral damage. I know this to be true because my “if” became my “then” and slapped me into an awakening. By one admission, and I will be the big girl and say, it was voluntary, I set things in motion of which I had no control over. Not only the result of the decision, but the subsequent events that came afterwards.

I know what it feels like to live in a perpetual merry-go-round and hoping it would stop, but there is one thing I have learned, in order to stop the dejavu you have to bite the bullet and end the cycle yourself. Crying about what I did doesn’t help and hoping that some magical white knight will come and rescue me will never happen. Not to mention learned helplessness is very unattractive. No one likes to be around someone whom they perceive to be needy and at the mercy of the universe.

So I clip and cut. This time I take many pauses and determine that whatever I do, to ensure I have sufficient to see it through.